When WHY hurts / Sue Moore (Amber's Pastor's wife )
I do not know the answer to the loud question,' WHY' that often screams in my face. I do not know how Abraham could have so willingly offered his only son Isaac to God. I offered two of my own, not in the same way, but all I could do was let God have them. Let God be in charge. Because I couldn't answer WHY. I still don't know WHY but I know God. I know He is FAITHFUL. I know He is LOVING. I know He takes care of me. I know He takes care of my sons. I know He takes care of Pricilia. I know He takes care of my dear grandpa who died years ago. So I let God be in charge of WHY. When the dreadful question nags at me "WHY?" I just tell it to report to God, He's in charge here. Because I know that I can't carry WHY around with me until it destroys who I am. "WHY" makes me weak and vunerable and lonely and doubtful and empty and helpless and feeling horrible.
I found healing only after much time and the day I could admit that I must start to help someone outside of myself. I could have spent forever dwelling on things I could not change. Meanwhile there are other people, places, families that need encouragement, a loving voice, just someone to be there. There must be a way that I can make a difference in the world. So I dedicated to my sons the work that I do to help others have a better life. The odd part is, that there are days that are so hard that I want to quit. But what would that mean? It would only make the WHY come back again, like a moment of defeat. So I continue on, knowing that God is FAITHFUL and LOVING. I trust (which is easy on some days and harder on others!) I TRUST God to USE ME and to USE my CHILDREN to USE PRICILIA in the perfect way that He can and does. It is God who lives in us. I don't think God is done with you or me or our children or my dear grandpa. I think He has a perfect plan that is still doing amazing and beautiful things with all of us. We can't see everything right now but the view is going to be better.
John 14
Let not your heart be troubled,
You believe in God,
Believe also in Me (Jesus).
Let not your heart be troubled,
You believe in God,
Believe also in Me.
In My Father's House
are many, many mansions
if it were not so I would have
told you.
Let not your heart be troubled,
You believe in God,
Believe also in Me.
God is with you every step of the way.
God Bless!
sue moore
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